Below is the script of the words I spoke at my mother’s memorial service on January 9th, 2016.
For some reason as a child I found a reason to be afraid of many things…
Mom’s response was that God hadn’t given us a spirit of fear, and that it was our job to fight against that fear. She taught me that the best way to fight spiritual warfare, is with scripture.
So, because her daughter was a scaredy cat, she would make index cards with bible verses on them. The idea was for me to be able to memorize them and pull them out when I needed them most.
So, because of that foundation whenever I’m afraid to this day I recite:
“What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.” Psalm 53:6.
“The name of Lord is a strong tower, the righteous run into it and are safe.” Proverbs 18:10
I was going through some of mom’s stuff this week and found this stack of index cards. It’s exactly like what she used to make for me to memorize scripture, except I see here that she wrote down the names (and immediate family members) of each and every First Baptist Church of Fort Lauderdale staff member to pray for.
It reminded me that mom was always praying for people and exercising her faith in a major way.
As I am coming to terms with the loss of mommy, God gave me another verse that sums up mom’s life in my opinion.
It says this,
“The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD, And He delights in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down; For the LORD upholds him with His hand.”
Psalms 37:23-24 NKJV
Mommy exercised her faith and worked to be a righteous person. I believe God gave me this verse because mommy was a good woman, righteous. Therefore her steps were ordered as she delighted in the Lord. She had her battle with pain, but she was never cast down. God upheld her through the very end.
Though I wish my mommy could be here with me, I believe God ordered her steps and I will rest in that. We don’t understand why after only 56 years, mommy would be called home, but even though it was short, she lived SUCH a full life…she was so faithful in everything and she gave so much…God said, ok, faithful servant, come on home…and there’s no other place she’d rather be.